01052011

what the hell is wrong with girls? why do they cry over things easily? why do they have to worry about their look? why do they couldn't forget the things boys could never remember? why do they have to remember all the damn little things boys say? why do they set their hopes too high, and burst into tears when they fall? why do they often sleep their pain to sleep?

God knowssss why do i have to be those-mentioned-girls.

i am freakin' weak.

This post. i reblog it from amy's blog. 

bcs i do feel that-way. and keep askin the same question.

What the hell is wrong with me?

The Most Wonderfull Gift

What word can describe them? None!

<3 Similikiti For Sure

Colsky!!!!!!!!!

The best class ever!

Eiffel! One of the 7 wonderfull things in the world.

and that's someone for me

B-Channel!!!

can you even believe? me? defenitelly not.

 KADL! 

i can't find another picture and that's pathetic! 

K = Karima

A = Andini

D = Dinti

L = Laras!

#Crematite.

=

L.O.V.E

thoose are the most wonderfull Gift that GOD gave me in my #Forlcendrix Live. there're no one can replaced them!

I love them for sure. they've given me so many memories more then i can imagine. and i Love them!

If you want to try to steal them. there's no doubt your life will be more misrable than before! xoxo

they've given me the most wonderfull and unpredictable also undescribeable time in my life!

they make me feel loved, they make me love them.

They're my Life, breath, spirit, love, heart!

.

Dear D,


it's been 26 days since 4th april. you know. i know. everbody know. we're done since that day. but... done doesn't mean that i'm not your firends anymore rite? okay whatever. friends, enemy or what. that 4th april thing shouldn't make us this way. what do i mean with this way? yap! i just want to hang around again with you. i just wanna say 'hi' again. i just wanna be your friends. i just want to have another silly conf with you? is that even wrong?! what the....., everytime i try to start a convertation you always make it as a fight. no. i don't want it. what's wrong with say 'hi' and talking? no, there isn't. please. i don't want to be your...........enemy?or what. i can't decide what do you want to call me. but at last, can you please appreciate it? when i try to talk to you? it's just a TALK. i don't have any reason behind that EXECPT want to shill out with my friends. I never heard this story from your side. but please..... if i do have wrong with you, go and tell me. Yell at me if that's necesarry. tell me by talk to me. or texted me. or whatever but don't act like this!
Do you know? it's pretty hurt. when you kust wanna talk to someone and he make it as a fight!!! it's just a talk. you know. it's pretty sucks. really sucks acctually. yeah i do miss you. that's normal isn't it? so. if we can't get in touch with 'that' way. atlast.....can we have a small talk? and get laugh in the middle of night again?




Dear Eiffel,


wow. i don't know where do i wanna start. yaps. mybe i can start with 'her' hai! finnaly you've fallin in love (again) and i hope you get it rite this time. you know..... when i look at her, my mind goin crazy, shootin somethin as 'how lucky she is, how pretty she is, how happy her life is' :) and i'm happy and glad because she can make you said, the word that you never said before. and i'm happy for you^^ really. but noowwwwwww. i want you to tell her. in the rite time. don't let anybody get's her heart. you deserve her :) well i guest that' all...... CONGRATS!!




Dear you,


Hey you. you're pretty :) you're kind. and. you. have. him. as. a. person. who. loved. you. i'm no one. i shouldn't say this. but...................................please, take care of him? could you? take care of his heart? can you? dnt make it difficult. okey. he loved you. and you loved him.
Go and have a wonderfull world!

PENTING GAPENTING BIKIN SENENG DAN SPEECHLESS!!! SOMBONG DULU YAAA^^

Jadi singkatnya, gue sama mega. habis nonton film yang berjudul 'crazy little thing called love' ituu. trus berakhir air mata gitu. karena emang filmnya unyu, truss pas filmnya udah selesai kita bingung gitu mau ngapain. 
akhirnya..... buka twitter, DAN MENEMUKAN KEAJAIBAN DUNIA YANG KE 8 *lebay dikit boyee*

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Untittled.
i bet it's not the first time i postoed something and it has no tittle. i just dont knw.....what tittle that deserve this post.




okay. now how do i feel? to be honestly.
i don't know 


but i think that i'm scared.
scared of what? huh?


i don't know..... okay. honestly i'm scared of myself,
why? i can't explain it.
it's so fckn complicated.
but the point is............... i'm scared. of many things. include myself and E! 

t's just........ i don't want this silly things change things. so many things. i just wanna stay, like this. yeah, this way. it's better than loose anything :) 

this, is. it.

okay want to know the fvkn truth?
i'm scared
strat this fckn part again......

yeah. this fckn part. i'm scared to start and enter this part (again).

04.04.2011.

Gue tau. Lo gak akan baca.
Gue tau. postingan gue gak akan ngubah apapun.
Gue tau. setelah gue nerbitin postingan ini, dunia bakal tetep jalan.


Bumi bakal tetep berotasi 24 jam
Bumi bakal tetep berevolusi 365 Hari
Sekarang bakal tetep jadi tanggal 5 april 2011
dan..... lo bakal tetep jadi lo. yang sudah resmi keluar dari lingkaran kehidupan gue.


Tapi gue juga bakal tetep ngomong..........


I know i can't be your girl any longer.
I can't be the one who said 'happy Birthday' in the end of the day. and hoping that she will be the last girl in your life. and in your heart.
I can't be the one who told you, that i'm scared of loosing you. 
I can't be the one who get mad, when you're chating with another girl.
No.
I Know i can't.


Even i don't have a chance to tell the world, it was you who guarded my heart.
It was you the reason i smile
It was you the reason i cry
It was you the reason i open my eyes every morning. just want to make sure, that you've texted me. start the day with me.
It was you who make me this way
It was you who told me what to do
It was you who make me feel loved
It was you who make me laughed
It was you who make me wanna scream out loud
It was you. the reason why i wanna buy a guitar and learn a song. so that i can play a song for you.


It Was You.


I know we've decided to do this. and i'm sure for God Shake. i don't want to feel 'regret' bcs this is the best for us? Nah. i don't wanna say that. it's happened because it has to be.
Many song
Many words
Many sentences
Many laughed
Many Tears
Many feelings...


That you've given me, for this 1 month eleven days. and i'm thankfull to GOD for that.


Even we're done. i still have a hope. simple hope. million people hope.


'Hope that we will someone esle. who can make us happy. and smile everday"


Gracias. Dickson Ardhana Satria Kumara!

01042011

Hewla! 


hari ini sepertinya saya akan kembali nyampah. so be patient for reading ya^^


i'm fallin in love with this font size. smallest. 
so... it's smallest font. but you still can see. what am i saying. in this blog.




so. i'm just thingking about somethin. somethin that happened to me. and must be happened to everyone else.... and what is that?


imagine, if you're in a trouble. or mybe you've got something to say, because someone that important in your life, has did something bad. or mybe something that makes you cried. or even feel useless and hopeless.
and it's happening to me rite now. and now i'm feelin totally...........
BAD.


you know. when i get mad bcs of some reason.,... i'm going be like

YOU'RE JERK!!

YOU MAKE ME CRY

YOU NEVER UNDERSTAND ME

YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY

etc.

and in my mind. he's the one who did all of this. but i never think how does he feel. or why did he do that? there's must be a reason rite? even baby's crying for a reason!!

and now...... i realised i'm the one who deserved this label

JERK.

yes i'am. i deserved that.

bcs of what?

I never asking what's going on with him

I never asking what does he want

I never asking or giving more attention

and when i get jealous when he's talking with other girls. mybe that girl. she can make he laughs and feel comfortable. and for that. iim really sorry.

i'm sorry. bcs i can't be better than her.

i'm sorry bcs i always get your day more sucks than before

i'm sorry for being the shellfish girl ever

i;m sorry for myself acring like that,

S.O.R.R.Y!

?

You. 

 i still can't explain the things that happened between us. i get jeaolus easily so easy. that's because i don't wanna loose you. you. you. 

i'm sorry if that's really bother you. but do you know? even if i know. you won't read this silly post. 

i just want you to know. heard your laugh. heard your voice. really. i feel really comfort. at first, i want to yell at you, out loud, but then..... heard your laugh, it's makes me stop. always

the person who always laughed when i phoned him. is the person that i loved the most.

i miss it. i miss your voice. i miss your laughed. in the middle of that kinda situatuion or mybe this kinda situation. i need you. but i can't tell it. i don't know. i keep telling myself all oh the bull that full of shit. that's everything going to be just okay. but then i can't stand it.

do you know......................

i just can't tell you what the hell is going on. and i really mad at myself for acting like that.

i miss you. so damn much. you just donna...... i wanna hug you.hold you tight. won't let you go. i want to be in your arms.

and there's so many fckn things that i 'can't' write it here.

Just keep laughing and smilling okay? bcs that's the reason i open my eyes every morning. <3

01-04-2011

hei.


gue beneran labil. tadinya mau nulis di blog.mau tereak *yangpadahaludahjelasgabisa* mau cerita.dsb.sekarang ga.mud.at.all. need moodbuster!!


udahlahya....................posting foto aja ya ;) #gapentingabis

i just wanna say. thoose are the sweetest memories i've ever had. so don't even try to steal it from me with any reason. or i will kill you with the way you never tought, and for GOD shake i'm serious....... :D